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[Dec. 9th, 2009|05:27 am] |
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what's worth fighting for? when you are fighting so hard to hold on and everyone just give up. |
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| This is life. |
[Dec. 3rd, 2009|12:33 am] |
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"When someone is crying,
of course, the noble thing to do is to comfort them. But if someone is trying to hide their tears, it may also be noble to pretend you do not notice them."
i know how you feel nikki.
sometimes you just cant help feeling left out.
i too feel the same.
don't know there is alot of ups and downs this week.
i know maybe i just shouldnt be back.
seriously, im not a good player neither do i have good stamina.
hockeyyyy.
i'm still considering to join clubs cos i dont even know whether they want me anot.
year 3 liao
so many things to think about.
i seriously got thought of retaining so that i can continue studying in TP
hahah dumb right?
i will miss this bunch of girls.
nikki and sihui especially.
laughing machines. making our day!
really glad that robin is more open and approachable.
im sure the girls will do you even more proud next year!
school hasn't been good either.
i barely pass or fail badly in my quizes.
come on it the final semester and im not buck-ling up my GPA.
sometimes i feel so stressed cos C is a 4 pointer.
Graduate Gold medalist.
and i am nothing.
he has such a bright future for him
and im a no bodyy.
do you every ask yourself why you try so hard in something and you wan to be good,
however it ends up that you are worst then expected.
why cant i be good in hockey? and be good in my studies?
am i trying not hard enough?
shucks. ):
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[Nov. 25th, 2009|05:17 pm] |
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monday was a eventful day. it was the final day of competition against SP.
cried because i was really very happy that we did our best.
best was robin's message to us.
your the best coach lahh! (:  yeahh yeahh he missed my name out. cos robin thought i was year 2. how i wish i was. will really miss this group of girls. ):  this is the team that never gave up who keep fighting until the every end. love you all. (:
come on TP RAYS! :D |
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[Nov. 12th, 2009|09:44 am] |
ytd was nyp vs tp match.
i don understand why the umpire can be so bias. it's so obvious that they are siding nyp.
they injure so many of us lor.
how can they do that.
hope mu chen face is okay.
that li min's ball was damn hard.
oh damn pain lor.
shit i don even know how am i going to school today lahh.
on another note. really love the hockey girls.
now whether we win or not doesn't matter.
cos it's the team love that we have.
and stop making fun of 16 and me lahh.
i only eye candy him and his 6 packs lor
the other girls also what.
hahaha.
anyway ccn day's tml.
damn sian don understand why some people don't want to cooperate.
is like we are doing it to help the needy students in tp.
why is it so hard to go the extra mile to help them raise funds.
don't get what some people are thinking.
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| HOCKEY. |
[Nov. 7th, 2009|01:10 am] |
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i thought that this week would be a tough one as C was at field camp however it wasn't. this hockey girls really made my whole entire week fun and joyful! LURBERS!!! <3POLYITE games are coming very soon. monday 9/11 - TP vs NP
Wednesday 11/11 - TP vs NYP!!!
friday 19/11-TP vs SP.anyway today SP vs NYP and you could never guess who won. SP!!!
we shouldnt underestimate how well all the teams can play. 
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[Nov. 4th, 2009|12:00 am] |
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today training was fun!
i always look forward to tuesday and thursday.
in the past i used to dislike tuesdays and thursdays.
cos both days have the longs and most boring lessons!!!!
but now hockey trainings make tuesdays and thursdays different.
hahahaha
Dinner-ed with Sihui, Sengie, Sam, Sab, Grace, Ruby, Robin, Rayan and ifah.
aston, was like so long sinced i ate you.
actually i used to think that sihui is a very quiet gal
but now i know she can be damn lame and funny!
"robin di di"
hahaha she start to look like bobby dog to me.
skipping lecture and not paying attention in lessons is a bad thing.
still promised C that i will not skip now im doing it. ):
thankful that everythings well. :D
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[Nov. 2nd, 2009|01:48 am] |
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oh my, CCOM report not done yet!
tml have lectures at 9.
EFUND tam's homework not done!
HOCKEY polyite games are coming. don't think i deserve to get into the school team.
YEAR 3, but my skill sux.
i really regretted not continuing hockey during year 2.
who asked me to quit.
sometimes i do feel outcast cos all of them have their own click.
but i cant blame them for i myself always never join them for dinner.
someone once told me that they envy my life.
having C and studying such a wonderful course.
but do you all know that there are alot of things that you all don understand.
all i know now is that i am holding on to that mustard seed-like faith.
telling myself that i could believe in God for he will provide.
he will provide the strength for the trainings, the wisdom and knowledge.
god, please guide me back home for i have stray away.
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[Oct. 31st, 2009|12:47 am] |
wow, been really busy. time really flies when you are 3.2.
today i went down to ubi to set test date for theory test. hahaha know im quite a slow poke.
and was laughed by my friends who say i too short to reach the car pedal.
polyite hockey matches has been set.
im quite pissed with NYP cause they changed the date so that the national team players for nyp can trash TP.
seriously not fair.
but what ever the case, we should just do our best.
last of all please support this lj shop. the things are quite affortable:D
masqueradestory.livejournal.com/
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| off to Laos... |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|11:07 pm] |
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JSXP was a blast! really enjoyed it. thanks everyone.
Hi guys! im off to laos!
early birthday wishes to : JACTHINA HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY.
hope you enjoy your time at doha.
miss you lots!. ( Love me )</div></div></div>
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[Aug. 13th, 2009|12:29 am] |
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getting the hang of taking fire works.
it's the only thing that gets my mind off all the other stuff.
i now really disgusted by all the NEVER ENDING tawainese DRAMA MAMA happening.
stop saying what you are doing!
haven you thought that he didnt want to tell you guys cause he was ready too?
how can you make fun of people?
when you already know what was going on.
really childish.
FASC and PINS i really hope i can pass them
thanks for encouraging me and assuring me that i will pass if i don't give up.
but it seems like the most important person is not giving the support.
anyway JEL WAI ANG!!! i want to go Malina too. but haiz, JSXP and COLIN
PENANG trip seems like i'm not going too.
sometimes i wonder,
i priorities you as the most important
but it seems like you don't what me to be there.
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| marina barrage. |
[Aug. 1st, 2009|11:34 am] |
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ytd was really a happy day for me!
marina barrage we went. not alot of people.
shoot fireworks and went to simpang to eat with grand uncle, twinny and vanessa chen.
today im slamed back into reality that project submissions are near.
i so want to go to DOHA and visit jacintha
or travel away
i want to go on a holiday like SOOOON
damn tired of staying in some where where reality is always catching up with you.
fireworks festival is the thing i look forward too.
the rest i leave it. |
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[Jul. 27th, 2009|09:15 pm] |
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Please don't take people's kindness for granted.
i can bluntly say,
this sux. and from now on i will not have a change of heart
is YOU all made me be like that.
i will be that cold monster.
life could not have gone any more worst.
bye bye old me
say hello and welcome to the MAD and CRAZY world.
i am tired.
damn tired...
how good it would be if i could be invisible
then i can be un-noticed. |
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[Jul. 24th, 2009|10:29 pm] |
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i'm really tired.
FRIENDSHIP.
i really thought you were a friend that i could talk to,
end up i was wrong
real wrong.
i have been thru so much that it amazing me how much heartaches the heart can take.
maybe like what they say I OWE YOU all of that.
and i have paid my debt.
from now no i don't need to do anything for you friend.
to that friend that i BELIEVED and TRUSTED.
maybe you never considered me as your friend.
am i really not working hard enough?
why the world want me to be so perfect.
i am imperfect.
i cant be perfect okay?
stop trying to make me who you want me to be.
all i need is some encouragement from FRIENDS who value that friendship.
*edited*
running becomes almost a everyday must do thingy. (:
i have decided to forgive and forget.
to be really happy.
"your value is not by what others say of you, BUT by how much you yourself value yourself"
no matter how bad childhood was
most important is like what you said
ARE YOU HAPPY?
if im happy,finding out the truth don really matter.
and the world don't owe you anything.
is just really unlucky that your mum left you,
time don't heal.
but time only make us adapt to the changes the world force us to face.
i know you are strong on the outside
but some how inside you,
you are not strong you only appear strong cause you had to adapt and face it.
i know you are like me, miss your mum too.
and i know you wan her to see you grow up and marry the girl of your dreams and stuff like that
but hey boy,
life really have to move on.
you will surely find that babe that will love you as much and carry your that burdens/hurts.
guys come on JIAYOU! (:
we will make the world a better place to live in.
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[Jul. 22nd, 2009|04:24 pm] |
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i really wan to go punggol to take photos!
arhhh!
really felt weird this week.
kinda of emo-shit feeling
for no reasons.
ytd Swensen's with Grand uncle, Michelle and Vanessa.
was really fun meeting with old friends.
lucky got that smarty pants talk crap friend (:
thanks smarty pants for all the HTHT!
but you really arh so grumpyyy and hot & cold attitude.
Watched harry potter with colin in the morning.
i thought the movie was okayy. not as bad as what the rest said.
sometimes it becomes a drag being with you.
don understand why you have to react this way.
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[Jul. 17th, 2009|11:06 pm] |
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many ups and downs for the week.
projects submission, hockey trainings and quiz.
though i was really hurt by the comment.
but i cant deny that i'm fat and have thunder legs.
happy stuff!!
really happy because i have so many happy pills friends with me.
Colin love, jeannie dear and woodyyy good friend.
Colin: don't worry okayy? I'm a strong gal. i will be strong. (:
Jeannie dear: thanks for loving me for who i am. and being such a great junior. any problem must tell me okayy? don't keep to yourself. :D
Woody: thanks for the jokes and effort to make me feel better. especially the korean songs cheered me up. sorry lahh your birthday i emo lahh.busket! (:
  
Jacintha: I miss you sooooo much. hope doha weather hasn't been that bad. Fly soon. Qatar uniform looks nice on you! (:
anyway when i was taking the bus i saw this guy taking a kid to school
he struggled alot as i think his not used to doing all this 'mothers supposed to do' stuff.
reminds me of when i was young.
a father taking up roles of a dad and a mum.
when my dad always take me to school with my sister.
when we often got scolded by the teacher
why were out school uniform so yellow and school shoes so dirty.
actually was because my dad didnt know how to do any washing.
life without a mum really feel so empty.
PHOTOGRAPHY my love!
i think i will go to punggol to take some photos.
punggol has so much nice places.
i'll go tml bahh.
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| happyyyy birthdayyy. |
[Jul. 15th, 2009|12:05 am] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR WOODY ngweechin!!!! (: hope you enjoy your BIGGGGG day arh and like the manyyyy presents arh.
hehehe but i will not stop calling you wild boar
today was quite a bad,depressing day for me,
it really sux to hear those things.
and now is like quizes = fail fail.
makes no sense.
i wan to cry out to someone.
tired man.
do you even care?
sometimes i wonder.
i work hard to train for what is really because of my passion for hockeyy,
or just for you to make you happy i slim down?
does it really matter whether i am nice looking or not.
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[Jul. 13th, 2009|11:38 pm] |
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how i wish i could,
help.
it's depressing to see bad things happening one after another.
i wonder how much heartaches can a heart take?
why is it like that.
cant i bargain for it not to happen?
sometimes i feel lucky for a family who loves me though im not one of them,
and god blessed them all with good health.
though we are not rich,
but we got thru lots of things together.
life isn't fair.
why must i learnt it the hard way to know it?
god i really hate to seemy friends all going thru this.
i rather it was me.
like how david cook-permenant song.
god help them give them strength
strength to know that what they go thru is worth it,
praying for them,
may you grant my wish.
thank you. |
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[Jul. 11th, 2009|10:58 pm] |
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my heart cant take any more.
it's just a trip.
why you just don't understand?
i hate it when you dig up all that stupid stuff
what i go home late and etc..
i don club or go out until like 12midnight.
and you say i'm wild.
please all my friends are clubbers and they drink like mad,
i never done all of that.
and you keep saying me to act like a girl and stop being wild.
it sux to the max!
why couldnt i just go. airfare is FREE.
you can go overseas what ever you want but i got to listen.
I HATE YOU.
how i wish was like 금잔디 in the Korean's flower over boys, she had that good friend when there was any problem 윤지후 will always be there for her. any problem, any time he is there.
how i wish i could have a best friend like 윤지후 where anything anytime could be there to listen to my problems.
back to the hell life.
so tiring that some times i wish i could just give up every thing.
it seem like it's not working anymore,
you like your life and i love my life.
there is not more promises,
if your life is so important,
i think there is no wayy should i keep giving in to fit you.
you need to try too.
if your friends are the priorty,
then just let me know.
colin pua, sometimes you need to know when to let go.
let everyone to be happy.
isn't it what you wanted?
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[Jul. 10th, 2009|01:11 pm] |
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one of my best camping is going off for 2 YEARS!!!!!
JACINTHA SHAN!!!!
will miss all that funny times and the gossip sessions lahh!
must write to me okayyyy?
i'm quite sad and happy cause finally you got to do what you wanted,
but sad cause you will be away for 2 years.
like serving army lahhh!
hockeyyyy matches for this whole week.
sat there will be another match with hongkong uni.
do come down and support TP hockey gals! (:
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| The test of time |
[Jul. 6th, 2009|10:33 pm] |
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read this from the TODAY newspaper
"If you want to know whether or not you're really in love, give it the test of time.
Infatuation is the name we give to that first bright burst of attraction between two people.
It sets our pulses racing and makes us think of clouds and fireworks, as well as stories that end in "happily ever after".
There is no doubt infatuation looks and feels very much like love; the only problem is, it doesn't last.
It's quick, emotional high, with no commitment behind it.
And when it runs its course, we find ourselves back were we started, with little or nothing to show for the experience.
How then can we distinguish real love from temporary attraction?
If the feeling is unreliable, how can we measure the commitment of the will?
There is only one answer:
It takes time.
Measure your motivation carefully, and when in doubt, stall for time.
Give your emotions a chance to evolve and oscillate.
If your love is real, it can handle the wait, and your relationship will be stronger for the seasoning of an unhurried foundation."
may time give us answers
like what you said.
TIME MAKES WONDERS.
maybe i shouldn't be mad and some times slow down and look.
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